On October 11th, as I wrote in my blog, I had committed myself on a journey of my own personal renaissance and the process of metamorphosis, rather than incremental changes and live more than one vigrous life in a lifetime.. Time stays long enough for anyone who will use it. The journey so far has been shaky. Old habits die hard. Useless activities compete with useful one’s. Distractions in a connected world are innumerable. But I am motivated. Those days when I am the ‘new’ Neil, majority of the time, are happier and cleaner. There is one clear difference in me which has clearly emerged. Most of my life, I have found fault in others. I would rebuke them in my mind. Under every rebuke, I was able to hide my own blame or culpability. I would be vexed at others and feel sympathy for myself. Of course I have been wronged by others in a blatant fashion by some. I regret that I let them do that to me because the scars still hurt. Now I find rebuking myself rather than anyone else most of the time. I am as culpable, if not more, as anyone else is, for anything in my life. If a houseplant dies, I can reflect any blame away from myself, but it is not true and is regressive in my journey. Let us try to rebuke ourselves before we rebuke others. An honest self rebuke is a sincere compliment……